It's 3.15pm and I'm in the computer room at uni. I'm just about to leave to go and buy some food for my two-hour-long seminar in 45 minutes.
The obesity-related problem lies in the thought I just had: I'm not actually hungry. In fact I'm quite full (for once). I've had a sandwich and some crisps today and just had a fake Red Bull that cost me 35p from the shop. Not loads of food (again, for once), but enough to 'keep me going'*. Anyway, yeah, I'm going to buy MORE food for my seminar!! What is wrong with me?! I just don't want my stomach to rumble. Even though I'm alright friends with the people I sit with so it's not like they'll care, and it's perfectly normal to be hungry once in a while, I still want to stuff my face just to make sure nobody knows how obese I am. Cos it's not like they can tell from just looking at me.
It's sort of ironic though seeing as I'll turn up the the seminar with crisps or sandwich or chocolate or sweets or biscuits (or all?) and people will see me and be like, "oh look the fatty's eating again". So they already know I'm obese from that fact - and also because I do actually look quite fat. Yet for some reason I'd rather they see me shoving food down my throat, than possibly hear my stomach rumble..which probably won't happen, because I'm full up anyway from lunch. Oh well.
Georgina x
*Why do people say this?! "Oh have a massive portion of fried chicken, chips and shitloads of burger sauce to keep you going", as if you'll keel over and die if you don't stuff your face every couple of hours?! And it's not like I don't have enough fat to live off of anyway in case God forbid I didn't eat for an hour. Not that I'm complaining, seeing as I use this excuse all the time.
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